Someone. Anyone just listen to me. Please.
Slow my life down about 5 lightyears. Everything is happening too fast. I don't want this to be over; I don't want this to be the end. What we had was amazing and then... then I messed it up.
I haven't had any reason to turn back time. Why would I ruin something that could, and probably would, affect my life completely.
Just... Just, oh my God.
Just turn it back to July. Turn it back to the moment I said "yes" for that job back in March.
I need to apologize. I need to apologize for being a burden, and fucking up someone's life, and asking for stuff I don't need, and being annoying.
God. I'm always annoying. Be it I'm annoying someone else, or annoying myself. I don't do it purposely, I promise. I promise I don't try.
I don't try to get you all to hate me.
It just ends up that way.
I want to know how to stop it.
Please. Please help me out here.
Why am I always the one to mess up?
[I'm...really sorry for clogging up your f-lists with my... pointless, emo ramblings..]
Current Mood: hysterical/lonely
Current Music: Apologies Remix